chalcedony_starlings: Two scribbled waveforms, one off-black and one off-white, overlapping, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (Default)

Listen and grow / Virtuous laugh / Exo's flow / Clear the chaff

Priority: looseness; acceptance; drift forward on the current.

Areas: cCU; cAU; healthcare (urgent); home.

Specifics: job consistency; health insurance; slow habit formation.

Keep up: one day at a time; listening; gratitude; emotional defusion/detachment.

chalcedony_starlings: A black left guillemet to the left, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (imetagon)

Dear visceral depression and related adversarial phenomena:

You can make me cry involuntarily. (Empirically speaking.)

You can lock down my coarse motor controls for another two and a half hours because I'm not allowed to get out of bed yet. (I'll have to find a way to either undermine this or maybe set up my sleep cycle so you don't get the insomnia-synergy.)

You can't make me not a dragon.

I'll claw at you every time. May my beaks rend your causality to scraps and dust.

Screech-peckfully not-yours,
Metiagon Efydd, Premchaia Teneb Geminorum

chalcedony_starlings: Two scribbled waveforms, one off-black and one off-white, overlapping, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (scribble twins)

Finally wrote this up!


Dragon. Or dragons? She looks like one, but with striking bilateral variance. Much of her is feathery, and if you look closely, the feathers often move more independently than they really ought to. Apparently this creature is mostly based on a flockmind of drackels… but if you've seen them before, there's definitely been some evolution and growth recently.

The whole is about the size of a large horse, plus at least two meters of wingspan from side to side. Most of the body plan is pretty ordinary for a quad dragon, with four claws underneath that look like a cross between anisodactyl bird talons (yes, on all four) and broader dragon paws, with feathers padding the centers for when they splay out. Above is the rolling, sinuously fluid curvature of her back, constantly adjusting itself to the situation, and underneath is a subtle swell, as though some control points had been pushed outward to mark out some geometrorganic gravidity.

As one looks to either side, though, differences become more apparent. On her left side (from her perspective), it's almost all flock-structure, with visible surfaces made of very, very black feathers, though with a variable luster depending on how she's feeling, and occasional disheveled sticking-out bits. On her right, the feathered parts are mostly off-white, but the overall surfaces are mottled and veined with fine metallic scales, dominantly in burnished, gleaming bronze, but with those underneath being broader and paler. In the middle, where they meet, is a short dithered gradient where the quasicrystal-like tiling structure is easier to see due to the contrast, with more constituents from a single side getting tessellated in as one scans in either direction—enough gradient to not have a completely sharp edge, while leaving the sides quite distinct overall.

Toward the front, the shape of the head and face interpolates smoothly from a sharper, simpler cone-like curvature on the left to the angular and elegant right side. Atop the left side is a twitchy feathery ear behind (sometimes in front of) a wiry-curved horn, whereas the right side bears a pair of Bezier-y horns matching its style, the smaller back horn also capable of functioning as an ear.

Looking more closely at the face, both of the ‘lateral’ eyes to the sides are actually radially compound eyes. The right eye is tinted a medium brown with a clearer ring of beaklike formations surrounding it, while the left reflects so strongly in green it looks almost like it's glowing—but also, a slim sector of each, pointed toward the middle and slightly down, instead has the color of its partner. Between the two but further up is also a third, ‘forward’ or ‘dynamic’ compound eye with more of a swirl to it and a darker, muted purplish sheen. Further down, each pointed tooth from the two rows of them can peck at things by itself; those seem to be shared, or at least harder to distinguish.

The neck and tail seem to be the trickiest parts to handle. They're formed of braided birds, but with most of the white ones either holding large bronze scutes like shields or having them adhered to their sides; it's hard to tell. There's more restless motion in those places, when the whole is settled, as constituents rearrange themselves; it's harder to handle the differences in tighter confines like that, perhaps. And this especially means that the tail not only has a more-literal-than-usual mind of its own, but a fairly chaotic one, jittering around tapping and brushing at things if the main intelligence isn't paying enough attention to keep it under control.

Dangling awkwardly around the base of her neck is a circular metal name tag on a chain, reading ‘Quartzwing’ down its left side (her right), and ‘Metiagon’ down its right side (her left).

chalcedony_starlings: Two scribbled waveforms, one off-black and one off-white, overlapping, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (scribble twins)

Evolved our two strugglefishes in Pokémon GO while on night pre-solstice walkies:

Lost One the shiny Feebas → Found One the Milotic.

Espoisson the Magikarp → Serpensées the Gyarados.

Deep breaths. Cool night.

(Reconnexion à l'Abysse du ciel en cours…)

chalcedony_starlings: A white right guillemet to the right, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (quartzwing)

Reflecting ongoing changes:


It's a small population of [drackels]! Little reconfigurable birdlike creatures, that is, who are normally for making dragons out of. About... oh, seventy, eighty of them? Maybe a hundred if there's more hiding than it looks like. These ones are mostly whitish-colored, though there's some light-to-medium grays in there too.

They're currently not stacked up into a "solid" form, but that's okay, because they've gotten their talons and wings on some kind of mobile platform, consisting of a complex of birdhouses, on a three-meter-wide enclosed disk of grassy-looking artificial ground, on stilts (that is, metal pillars with crossbars and a wiring column down the middle), on four omni wheels. The visible birds are perched all about the little trees and the roofs of the birdhouses, and if you can hear high-pitched, quiet sounds, you can tell there's a bunch more who aren't immediately visible.

The 'habitat' has little trees scattered around it, which look like they might even be real ones. There's a pole in the middle that leads to an umbrella over the top, with separately openable sections for adjusting incoming light and weather protection. If you get close enough, there's a palpable "field" coming off the sides, a little electricky repulsion that forms a fuzzy but definitely present boundary---one which might be able to zap you in self-defense if you decide to get touchy with any birds or structures that aren't deliberately available at the edges.

Off-center, there's a circular building with unusually ornate carvings and symmetrical patterns of colored paint on the top. It looks capable of holding about six drackels, and is much more heavily guarded than the rest: there always seem to be three attentive drackels surrounding it, carrying little spears to augment their already-sharp talons with. That must be some kind of palace.

In interaction, the birds seem to act as a flockmind, combining their chirps to make better harmonics of speech, operating their wheels in an orderly and unified fashion, and generally being... 'persony'. Sort of. Maybe they're more completely personlike when there's more of them?


I made some ordering errors while shuffling the text around—I'll fix that later.

chalcedony_starlings: A white right guillemet to the right, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (quartzwing)

There are things I'm feeling that I'd sort of like to say, but half of them might not make sense to anyone who isn't also made of birds. Otherkin problems, question mark?

My active population's only about fifty currently, though I'm more consciously unified than I was yesterday. Keeping things slow to reactivate is deliberate… I can make slower, more focused improvements on things that were hard to keep steady while everything was in operation.

It's weird being up without Teneb. Not bad, though. It's good practice, for now.

The queen ring construction I'm using right now is also much more focused than my zeroth revision came up with. I don't know if I'll want to keep using that with a higher population and more stuff going on or not.

chalcedony_starlings: Two scribbled waveforms, one off-black and one off-white, overlapping, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (scribble twins)

“So I was trying to embrace the absurdity, but I kept getting a ‘malformed motivation’ error, and the energy output would keep going down. I tried to work around this by changing one of the motivation jumpers to ‘short circuit’ mode, but then a different part said there was a ‘circular philosophy’ error. When I unplugged the circular philosophy detector, the fans started running really loudly instead, so I unplugged the fans too, because I thought since they're circular they might be causing the circular error, and then a bunch of the wires started melting and exploding. All I wanted to do was embrace the absurdity. What am I doing wrong?”

“Everything.”

“Nothing.”

chalcedony_starlings: A black left guillemet to the left, on a flat darkish purpleish background. (imetagon)

Died in Habitica to a task our (in-system) GM gave a special deadly attribute to. Goodbye level 14 (again).

We'll just have to earn it back. o..@

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